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<br /><br />We suffering from alienation from our child within, we know what it’s like to have our quality of life devastated, and feel cut off from our self, our emotions, and the people around us. We obsess about others issues constantly and are frightened by the very nature of our childhood existence.<br /><br />We feel detached from our own self, like an automaton without free will, numb to everything and everyone around us. The world feels flat, and two dimensional. People seemed like robots, and we felt that we have lost parts of ourselves.<br /><br />There are many days we felt like we were going to lose control and go insane.<br /><br /> We have suffered alone, and had no one that empathised with what we were going through. No one could possibly understand what we were dealing with, or the nature of our disorder. When we are introduced to the stages experienced moments of realisation permeated us.<br /><br />

We suffering from alienation from our child within

We suffering from alienation from our child within, we know what it’s like to have our quality of life devastated, and feel cut off from our self, our emotions, and the people around us. We obsess ab…

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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="s1">When we reach and make the decision to study at the The stages we have become very proficient at dissociating. One of our favourite paraphernalia for our fix are Social Media, computers-games, films and books.</span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span class="s1"> <i>We use social media the way an alcoholic uses drink. </i></span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span class="s1">We do not question WHY we would need this addiction. It is just accepted as a matter of fact that we have become slightly flawed and weak and would attempt to escape living life whenever possible. We are seen as different  ‘defective’.</span><br /><span class="s1">Social Media are still a favourite way of feeding our dissociation addiction. As an alcoholic has bottles hidden all over the house, We have Facebook,twitter, Instagram etc. What will happen if there is an empty moment, and we did not have a phone or tablet to whisk our mind away from actually living in the present moment? What would happen if we actually had to ‘be’ instead of constantly dissociating???</span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span class="s1">The only way we have learned to deal with our difficulties is to dissociate. The idea of their being any other option is foreign to us. We even trained our </span>children to deal with their difficult emotions by dissociating. When our children are very young and having trouble managing their emotions, We would tell them, “Go into the next room and do not come out until you have changed.” We have learned to become very obedient; we leave the room in a tantrum state, but soon will emerge, smiling, pleasant, and happy. Any vestige of a problem is gone without a trace.</span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span class="s1">Having dissociative parents, you learn dissociation from them – both by being taught it directly, and by example. Parents who </span>dissociate are unable to help a child go through their emotions. They are   to help the child learn that an emotion is nothing to fear, but something that is very valuable and precious, helpful in living life. We sincerely believe that switching off an emotion is the best way to <span class="s1">deal with it. </span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="s1">We had never heard of the concept of self-soothing, it was pleasant to do some so-called ‘self-soothing ‘ activities, and I felt mildly better when I did them. But the concepts of staying with an emotion, sitting with it until it changes, and using a self soothing technique instead of switching, are all foreign to us. We are too </span><span class="s1">terrified of emotions to ever do this. We are afraid of fear itself, and will go to immense means not to experience the emotion of fear, or any other </span><span class="s1">emotion, without ever realising that we are doing this. We have control of ourself. We feel we can handle anything.</span><br /><span class="s1"> We become careful with organised groups of people, and with individuals who might not be safe. We learn what to look for, how </span><span class="s1">to tell whether or not something was safe, how to tell whether or not we are accessed. Eventually, we realise we are safe, our children are safe and well </span><span class="s1">on their way to healing, we all have our safeguards in place.</span><span class="s1">We have no reason not to live in the present, We are relatively free from harm from external sources, so there was no longer a need to dissociate, so we are </span><span class="s1">DONE with dissociation, right? we lived happily ever after, end of story?</span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span class="s1" style="color: red;"><i>Long ago, decades ago, We have made the decision that life was not worth living – it was something to ‘get through’ as smoothly and mindlessly as possible until we </i></span><span class="s1"><span style="color: red;"><i>could die. </i></span>The rule had been to imperceptibly stay as non-present as possible, while going about the business of doing what we had to do </span><span class="s1">to ‘survive’, to pass as human. That was a rule we learned deep, deep down.</span><br /><span class="s1">Einstein said: <i>“I must be willing to give up what I am in order to become what I will be.</i>” That can be exceedingly difficult. When we embark on this </span><span class="s1">journey of recovery we have not realised that healing required CHANGE on our part. We wanted the constant pain and anguish to stop, but we didn’t want my actual self to be different. We did not want to have to uproot the very foundations of our beliefs and actions and metaphorically relearn how to walk again. We wanted to be </span><span class="s1">free of the continual anguish we experienced, the continual need to cover up our lapses due to dissociation; the continual sporadic loss of time, the hop</span><span class="s1">scotching nature of our abilities – sometimes being able to do certain things; other times have no concept of, or even any desire to have certain abilities.</span><span class="s1">We wanted relief of all my symptoms, but I did not really want to “heal”.</span><br /><span class="s1"> When a person is finally ready to start dealing with their addiction, they gradually realise that they then have to deal with what caused their addiction in the first place; what they had been unwilling/unable to face originally, what drove them to drink. Only now their problems were compounded by all the problems that alcoholism brings.</span><span class="s1"> “The worst would pass in a few days. I’d feel good and I’d think, “I’ve got it down pat.” But then I’d look </span><span class="s1">at my life and feel bad. That’s the real pain when you’re an addict. USING HURTS, BUT REALITY HURTS WORSE.”</span><br /><span class="s1">when we are not dissociating, we look at our life and realise this is so very different than what we have envisioned. We do not have a birth family, We </span><span class="s1">do not have in-laws, We do not have blood relatives, We do not have a life partner. We give up an immense amount of ourself to insure that we would have </span><span class="s1">all these things, and when we stopped dissociating, We realise that not only did we have none of those people in our life, We are also missing major portions </span><span class="s1">of ourself. It has taken us along time to realise two things:</span><br /><span class="s1"> 1. How can you lose what you never had? I never did have those things, only a pretence.</span><span class="s1">And 2. We now have things that are far more important and valuable than those ever were in reality.</span><span class="s1">But. We are still addicted. We know we would not have survived if we had not had the skill of dissociation. It served us quite well. It saved our lives. Now we </span><span class="s1">don’t want to rely on it; we don’t want to do it automatically </span><span class="s1">we have identified three types of dissociation we struggle with:</span><span class="s1">1. The first way is the simple practice of spacing out or shutting off. we use this for two different purposes:</span><span class="s1">1. Avoidance when we are unwilling or unable to face things</span><span class="s1">2. A learned way to be able to switch. There are many times when we cannot access the parts that have the information and skills we need in </span><span class="s1">a situation. Throughout the decades we have learned that a way to handle this was just to shut off completely inside, and sooner or later the information we </span><span class="s1">needed would gradually seep to the surface or some other place in my mind where it would become accessible to me.</span><span class="s1">2. A second way we dissociate is to switch to other parts inside.It has taken us time to be able to tell when we am not ourself. we blend through </span><span class="s1">most alter personalities, and it used to be easy to believe we are just being ‘us’. We’ve learned to be alert to various factors. One is what age we </span><span class="s1">feel. Other ways we have found to know when I am not Child Within present are to feel what size the body seems, relative to other people or objects; Sometimes we look at a dog, and it feels as if the dog is shoulder height to me. Ooops. <span style="color: red;">No Child within present!</span> Other ways are to recognise what the emotional tone is and what the values are, what sort of things are important to us. How do I want to spend my time? A numbing activity such as computer games? Oops. That is not a </span><span class="s1">Child within choice for us. So who is out and why?</span><br /><br /><span class="s1">3. The third way we dissociate is one that may be difficult to grasp if we don’t use it. If we do, We will definitely know what we are talking about. We </span><span class="s1">will tell us that some people whom we have discussed this with have found this concept highly triggering.</span><span class="s1"> We found ourself talking to our guides about a ‘construct’. They asked us what we mean by that term; at the time we had </span><span class="s1">not a clue.</span><span class="s1">We have since learned that we create a construct when we are functioning through something that is not an alter. We are always looking for a perfect ‘formula’ </span><span class="s1">that we could leave in place, and personally go away. Life was something to be endured, and gotten through as gracefully and safely as possible, while the </span><span class="s1">real ‘us’ was tucked away somewhere inaccessible. When we are preparing to be in a situation which we may perceive as threatening, we automatically figure out </span><span class="s1">what qualities would be appropriate and useful for that event; find parts inside that have those qualities; put them together and create an ‘artificial’ </span><span class="s1">persona to deal with the situation.</span><br /><br /><span class="s1">We do want to say that we do not believe all dissociation is from addiction. If a person is still around perpetrators, dissociation may still be </span><span class="s1">necessary. But once dissociation is learned as the major means to handle difficult emotions, a person will continue to use it automatically from then </span><span class="s1">on, and it greatly lessens the quality of our life.</span><br /><span class="s1">Having decided we wanted to do away with this addiction and the pain it causes us, We find specific strategies helpful, when we are not dissociating our </span><span class="s1">decision to stop dissociating: We would like to share these with you.</span><span class="s1">We would like to start with a quote we found: “<i>No one healing intervention will enable a person to manifest the full scope of his or her wholeness. To </i></span><i>maximally heal it is important not to limit ourselves to a single modality but to incorporate several healing practices that encompass body, mind, and </i><i>spirit.”</i></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="s1">We at the Stages strongly believe it takes more than talk therapy to break through when there is severe trauma in the background. It takes </span><span class="s1">physical actions, whatever form they may take. When we are faced with severe trauma, the fight or flight response gets activated. This shuts down the </span><span class="s1">cortex; the part of our brain that can reason, plan and make sense of things. Pieces of the event, snapshot pictures, get recorded, but the meaning does </span><span class="s1">not. They are memories that do not make sense. After the trauma, these unresolved emotions are frozen in the body. Think of what the physiological </span><span class="s1">responses are to any emotion and what it means for these responses to be stopped before completion and remain in the body. There is an ‘act hunger’ </span><span class="s1">remaining – the body wants to move through and resolve these physiological processes. The body remembers even when the mind forgets. </span></span></h3>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="s1">The body acts as </span><span class="s1">our unconscious mind. At the Stages we have found a need to implement a full range of both play and safe drama therapies, to release our trapped body memories that are frozen into our child within.</span></span></h3>
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We at the Stages strongly believe it takes more than talk therapy to break through when there is severe trauma in the background.

When we reach and make the decision to study at the The stages we have become very proficient at dissociating. One of our favourite paraphernalia for our fix are Social Media, computers-games, films …

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We suffering from alienation from our child within

We at the Stages strongly believe it takes more than talk therapy to break through when there is severe trauma in the background.

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